Then a few years ago, I started having serious problems with my hands. They hurt so much I couldnt even pick up a can of soda. I would try to grasp the can and hang onto it, but I would drop it.
I went to my doctor who tested me for rheumatoid arthritis. The test came back negative. He knew the testing wasnt 100% certain when it came to diagnosing rheumatoid arthritis, but we decided to assume it was part of the degenerative joint disease, osteoarthritis.
Eventually, however, my fingers started going in different directions when I laid my hands down flat. He did another test, which still came back negative, even though I had all of the classic symptoms of rheumatoid arthritis. He sent me to a rheumatologist, and although the tests were negative, she said she was certain that, in addition to osteoarthritis, I had rheumatoid arthritis.
I was mad, but I had to move forwardGetting a diagnosis was different for me than it probably is for other people. At that point in my life, after living with pain for so long, another diagnosis was just like adding another name to the list, just one more disease. It wouldnt have done any good for me to get upset or depressed.
I did get mad, though. I thought, ‘Wait a minute, I already have A, B, C, and D. Do we really have to add E too? Still, I just had to bite down and move forward.
I handle my rheumatoid arthritis through pain management. I initially tried rheumatoid arthritis medication, but I had problems. I had little or no success with them, plus they just didnt seem to agree with me. So, I try to manage the pain and live with it daily, which I was already doing anyway.
I have flare-ups; there are days when I cant use my hands very well at all. But I also go into remission and can go for days and weeks without severe problems. I dont dwell on the pain whether Im hurting or not.
I am a big proponent of using distractions to help manage the pain. You have to have a distraction; you really need to have something to do or someplace to go that takes you out of the realm of pain for a while.
I have many. I like to paint ceramics, knit, put puzzles together, and do all kinds of crafts. When Im keeping busy with things I enjoy, I can push the pain back and say, ‘This is my time. Youre not allowed here. This is just for me.
Even if its only 15 to 20 minutes that I can stand to be active, thats 20 minutes that I can focus on something other than the pain. I think it is very unhealthy to constantly be struggling with thoughts of pain. I feel it and I cant make it go away. Still, I can make myself concentrate on something else for a while.
I also volunteer with the American Pain Foundation, so there are a lot of days when I want to be working on the computer and cant because I cant get my fingers to cooperate.