I felt ashamed, dirty, all those things. God, I had to get an STD that doesn't go away. It's a stigma that gets attached to you and it's rough. I couldn't stop beating myself up for being so careless. The guy didn't have symptomsbut I wouldn't have even known what to look for.
Finding the right treatment
The first year, my outbreaks were wildI had them all the time. I didn't know how to control them. And I was depressed all the time. I remember crying on my best friend's shoulder.
I talked openly with friends about how I felt. That was good because I found people who were in my same boat.
Dating with herpes
The dating scene was so difficult at first. I totally avoided sex initially. But now I don't care what the reaction isI tell everyone who needs to know. I discovered quite quickly that honesty really is the best policy and I haven't experienced a rejection since. I learned to be honest, say it up front, and let them know that it doesn't have to get in the way of great sex.
I've been with my boyfriend for almost three years and I know he wants to marry me. We have a very satisfying sex life. We use condoms for sex and practice abstinence whenever I have any shadow of a doubt. I have outbreaks a few times a year nownot very many. I abstain for seven to 10 days. I like to give it a few extra days to be on the safe side.